Pillar of strength..

It’s been a while since I’ve blogged. The news we were give on NYE has played havoc with my emotions and I haven’t really known how to express them. Most of the time it’s through tears, and I’ve spent nights crying when everyone else sleeps. In the days I’ve tried to find something, anything, to…

Everything we have..

I haven’t cried yet, I don’t even know if I can anymore. I don’t know if it’s because I’ve already cried so much, or it’s because I still feel so sick and numb, naïve in thinking that this is just like any other cycle of treatment. The news today wasn’t great, but it wasn’t anything…

Second Time Relapse

I write a lot when I’m sad. I’ve always found that it’s a way of getting everything out of my brain, even if nobody reads it, but this is by far the hardest thing I’ve ever decided to write. My gut won’t settle, and when I’m busy I can cope, but the minute I’m still,…